I have actuallyn’t written such a thing for a long time, and I also just felt i will, but I do not have much to express. every thing i must mention is either to boring to create or to crazy to publish. and I also’m in a strange funk that is listless now, most likely a hangover from piling ten a great deal of tasks and chores and learning into one weekend, therefore I’m also less likely to want to have one thing exciting to state.
Jesus, i will be this kind of a “depressive” funk these days. I am stuck in this rut that is terrible personally i think like my entire life is a huge stack of quicksand and We just keep getting swept up deeper and deeper in the mire and I also can not get anywhere! I did not think I happened to be gonna have actually a bg senior year panic than I ever am, but maybe this is some strain of the freak out virus because I know what I want to do with my life and I’m no more terrified for my future now. Every small thing that is stupid going wrong – my computer is totally dead, we go right to the fitness center almost every day and yet make no progress, my senior honor’s thesis is going positively nowhere, i have stopped doing research, my apartment’s dropping aside, We have almost no time to see my buddies and everyday is similar to a string of things I do not might like to do without any real promise of impending enjoyable and adventure to obtain me personally through it. I did not head to course yesterday into caring that much to actually leave my bed and go to school because I couldn’t work myself. I invested your day viewing Ricki Lake and that like and lolling about regarding the futon. We forced myself to head out into the postoffice also it took willpower of enormous proportions. Continue reading “The Solitary Woman. Well, I attempted. Lemme think much more and acquire returning to you.”